Yoona

Do not think that I chose you
So I would only let go
When everything turned amiss.
True!
I did ponder on it a thousand times
Before taking a step forward
And kissed that past goodbye.

If you could be, (thought I,)
Another erroneous judgment,
So be it. Let it be,
‘Cause fate welds it.
Let us bask and savor the moment
While we can,
And let it be one fucking wrong decision
Of a lifetime (if it was). 

Shall you think of me now as a Karma,
Oh, please do!
I’d be happy to be your bad karma;
And as long as my heart
Curses your name,
I’ll give you misery
And the hatred you deserve
For all the sins you’ve committed.

I do not wish to share your joy,
But I’ll take pleasure in your pain,
Suck it up and fear me then,
I wouldn’t be there to support your dream;
You asked for it, then you have it.
Together we can be
Each other’s poison,
Together we can be
Each other’s damnation.
You shall suffer in condemnation.

The time went rough and our love was tested
But you eloped because your mind’s twisted.
You would always freak out.
Damn much! But
I won’t sit down again nor kiss your ass up.
The ride had gotten too boring, bumpy, and tiring
And as I have anticipated,
You gave up and did chicken the shit out…

Now that we became a memory,
Do not think that I’ll remember you.
Never. Shame on you!
‘Cause, you will forever be despised
By my rebellious heart,
And I won’t be grateful
For the memory I had with you
When you promised me paradise
Yet you gave me nightmares.

Your narcissistic demeanor
Ascertained you earn no more chances.
Though you don’t deserve forgiveness
For the maltreatment you did, but
For the sake of my mental health
Just get the fuck out of my life that you belittled.
I am fed up with your toxic spells,
Your outburst has been hell to me.